What a great idea!

A Place of Hell Yes

" My individuality is my strength. The qualities about me that are common help me blend in when I don't want to call attention to myself. But what makes me Me will help me rise up and be different and stand out from the crowd"
I admit. Others influence me. but I am going to start limiting how much I let this influence happen. I am my own person. I am unique, I may not always fit it, but I am  proud of it I am going to embrace it!


This year is a year of changes.




"Wake up sleepy head
I think the suns a little brighter today
Smile and watch the icicles melt away and see the water rising...
Summers here to stay, and all those summer games will last forever
Go down to the shore, kick off your shoes, dive in the empty ocean"~DMB

17 times 4

Someday this new eating thing will not be new, it will be my lifestyle.

A learned a few things today.
#1 avocado is good mixed into tuna, makes me feel kinda like it's mayo.
#2 you cannot take vitamins on an empty stomach, blah.
#3 turkey meatloaf is great. Broiled not baked so its juicer.
#4 my husband who is also dieting and is having a hard time right now is slightly irritable if dinner isn't ready til 7.

I survived.

Day one in the books!!! The only complaint is that I had to pee 5 times at work. I'm a dental assistant people, the bathroom isn't always a right now thing in my job, but after having a bad run in with a inflated catheter while having Cam it needs to be, OK enough of that. I ate yogurt and an apple for breakfast, tuna, spinach salad and ff balsamic vinaigrette for lunch with tomatoes, almonds and 2 cuties(oranges) and for dinner I made a yummy Thai Chicken recipe found here http://17ddgal.blogspot.com/2011/12/thai-chicken-c1.html and a ton of edemame. I drank all my water and green tea
I bought sugar free creamer and still had my coffee, I'm unsure if this is a no no yet. I figured creamer is so low in fat, its the sugar I want to cut out. 
I also played Just Dance with my kids, I'm sure its hilariousness to watch, but hell its exercise. 
I was asked today what my resolution is this year...maybe I just want to be more closed chested or am afraid if I tell a bunch of people I will fail, either way I didn't say anything. I am ready to feel good about myself, I am ready to love buying jeans again.
All in all Im ready to be fulfilled. 

"no matter how slow you go, you are still lapping everyone on the couch"


I need to pee again, goodnight. 

17 days at a time

Why is starting something like a diet so hard? Is it the thought of throwing away food? It feels so overwhelming to think of changing your lifestyle, its so easy to just make the dinners you are used to making, to eat the food you are used to eating. I hope this time is different. I hope this time is different. I want to prepare but where do I start. I haven't grocery shopped, I haven't even meal planned, I am trying to not let that stop me. I took a picture of the scale today, I hope this is the last time I see that number.

and here we go.....

I've been wondering lately how I ended up in a place where people say, "have a great night, happy solstice." Really? 
I've wanted to blog for a long time, sometimes I've need a good bitch session about living in a small town, and frankly some of funny shit happens here, and just life in general. 
Everything about my life is great, the grass is greener on my side you could say, but some days are a private hell and I think a blog to do some venting and sharing may help others. So we will see how this goes, if I even keep up on doing it and if anyone reads it. 
"things seem brighter on the other side"~DMB